This thing with cancer has not stopped to amaze me.
Tonight, driving at 100 km/hr, I realised that one of the many many things cancer has done for me is to banish fear....the fear of the "rational" mind. That insipid voice that tells you to be careful, to check, to cross-check, to look in the rearview mirror, to get into the crawler lane. That dull weight that lodges itself in your chest and makes you take short raspy breaths as if you had no right to large gulps of oxygen.
Fear is man's invisible enemy. It can stand as tall as you are and be your own shadow. It manhandles you and pins you to the ground instead of letting you run free and fly. It shows you the devil and makes you forget that the Almighty has blown His breath into you.
My darkest fears have been banished. Alhamdulillah. Chased away by the reality of cancer. And inevitably, the reality of death.