I went down memory lane tonight.
I was looking for my original birth certificate when I stumbled upon a stack of old stuff.
Now, I am not a very orderly person. I do not have files labelled and papers double punched and neatly arranged in them. My organization is limited to throwing what I consider important in one drawer and then hoping it is where I think it is when I need it!
Anyway...I fell on some old cards from M, some as old as December 2005! And that threw me back into a time zone that no longer exists.
What a life it was! What a different person I was then! And I wondered to what extent that person still exists in me now...
I also fell on tickets for a show (a gift from A). And another piece of paper with his handwriting. These are now in my wastepaper basket.
And the thought again floated in my head....maybe this business with cancer is just what I needed to unhook me from myself long enough for a new me to emerge.
And that is something that only time will tell...