My head hurts tonight...but before I go to sleepland, let me writemember (yeah, I just invented the word! It means write to remember) a few things.
1. Within the cancer sorority, it is okay to ask direct questions about touchy subjects like baldness! No one takes offense. Comparison is allowed. And if you are confident enough, you can whip that wig/scarf off your head just to proudly show hair growth progress. Discussing about constipation, nausea, missed periods, etc etc is like discussing shoes or clothes....It is completely natural! Normal folks will never understand this.
2. Seeing for real someone with just one boob is still a shock even though I have seen lots of pictures of women having had a mastectomy. It is not easy on the eyes or the psyche. Makes me glad I still have two!
3. Radiotherapy with a male nurse is awkward!!! There is something very unnatural about it, I feel. Although why that should be the case is beyond my logic. Afterall, all my doctors are male. Could it be because the male in question was a young guy? Mmmmm....something to analyse in more depth.
4. I am having plenty of time for people-watching with my daily trips to work and the hospital. And for introspection. That latter part is not of much comfort lately. I NEED to get out of myself for a while. IA, soon.
5. Dear God, why do I root for the underdog? ALWAYS. Why, oh why? Yeah, I know. I AM the underdog! I am rooting for me...