Hijab, Hat, Hair.....HEADCOVERS!!!!!
by Shafeenaaz on Tuesday, March 8, 2011 at 9:49pm
OK, so I will soon be losing my hair. It's not a probability. It is a certainty. How am I feeling about it? That one deserves a post on its own.
I've been wearing a form of headcover (hijab, hat, hat+bandana, hijab+hat+bandana, etc) for the past month or so. And I still have not made peace with any form of headcover!
It may be a non-issue for a lot of folks, but for me, it is MAJOR these days! I spend hours (averaging 1.5 per day!!!!) tying, twisting, folding, pinning, creasing, matching the various combinations of shawls, bandanas, scarves, undercap, hats, etc that I possess just to come up with ...well something like what is on my profile pic!
Why the headcover? Well, I've always wanted to cover my head. I knew it had to come at some point. I just did not know when. So when Ca struck, it seemed like the most natural thing to do. Plus, I've never been into wigs or false nails or eyebrows, etc. Anything engineered to look real when it's actually not puts me off.
Now, I was expecting to take to headcovering like a fish to water....but this is proving more of a challenge than what I had anticipated. For one, I don't have the luxury of leaving some hair uncovered....I need complete coverage (can't be scaring innocent people with baldness!!!). Secondly, it is so effing HOT under a hiajb that it takes sheer willpowerfor me not to rip the thing off my head in order to fan my face!
The serious part of this is I cannot claim to be covering my hair for religious purposes.....at least not yet. IA, someday that feeling will come. For now, it is a matter of dealing with expected hair loss.
The trouble is I've grown up considering hair as public (as opposed to private). And like my face, hands, feet, etc, that did not warrant covering. The past couple of years saw my legs graduate from public to private category. Sadly, my hair remained firmly in the public category!
So yes, I'm still grappling with body image issues!
To add another H to the title of this post, let's just say I need HELP!